Growing up 10-31

Happy Halloween.

My youngest daughter turned two this past weekend. Every birthday I can’t believe how much my kids have grown. Every birthday i become more freaked out about my girls being teens. Being more and more exposed to the world. Children are so innocent. I know all I can do is teach them to the best of my ability. 

Thought

For some reason my 2 is coming out as – in the title… odd.

I have always wanted to write a book. I read and listen to a lot of lliterature. I am not very good at building up for suspense. Knowing  this has always held me back. I suppose I do not need it though, I can write with my own style.

I can be my own style.

Can’t Choose Your Family 10-7

My wife and I were not on good terms with my mother-in-law and her husband over the past few months but we had them over for dinner yesterday and it went well. I don’t know if the circumstances really matters to why we weren’t talking but the core reason is because they lied to us multiple times. A healthy relationship needs honesty and trust, we had lost that. At the same time we felt like there was no respect either. 

Last time we really talked was when we were house hunting and the whole time they belittle us. Treated us like children who didn’t know what we’re doing. When we told them we had put in an offer the response was, “you know you can’t just tell them you want it, you have to fill out paperwork and stuff.” I don’t do well with being treated like a child and it was hard for me to hold my tongue. When our first offer was rejected they questioned if we had done it right. When our offer was accepted it was like we had just gotten lucky and no work was involved on our end. Never the less, I want my kids to have their grandparents though, so we forgave them.

Forgives is not easy but I think it is healthy. It shows a level of maturity. The hardest part is they refuse to admit any fault or lying. So really what we have had to do is leave up some walls in the relationship, we can forgive but not forget. I am no longer mad at them but I still do not trust them and I think it will work out ok though. The visit yesterday went really well as we showed them our new house in a new town and talked about the baby we are expecting. I felt as if they realized we are adults.

My daughters we ecstatic to see them. We saw them through the window when they pulled up and my daughters ran to the door. The went out side to bounce up and down on the deck as they yell, “Grandma! Grandpa!” Seeing them so happy made it much easier to forgive. At the end of the day they are family.

Drama 10-6

Oh the drama. Drama at work, drama on Twitter, drama with my family, drama everywhere. I generally stay out of it where I can and will continue to do so. There are instances were it cannot be helped though.

With my family, I have to handle it and find the best solution for everyone possible. I won’t walk away from it because it has real lasting affect on the lives of those around me and my own. At work, I can let it play out for the most part. Someone may ask my opinion but most know I’m gonna be honest about things even if it’s brutal. On Twitter, I stay out of it. I share my opinions but do my best not to target anyone specific. 

I really just want to share a few words to live by:

Treat others how you’d want to be treated.

Practice what you preach.

Don’t assume.

Insomnia 10-5

My insomnia is back.

As a teen and into my early 20’s I had diagnosed insomnia. I say “diagnosed” because lots of people throw the word “insomnia” around like it’s no big deal. It has become synonymous with a lack of sleep or waking up and feeling tired from a restless night. Insomnia is much more than those things.

I used to not sleep for a days. I might lay down and close my eyes for a couple hours at a time but I’d never finish REM cycles and a lot of the time I couldn’t get past the first stage of sleep. Here is an explanation of how sleep is supposed to work. If you think you really have insomnia please see a doctor. But also try to handle it with as little medication as possible. Most the things they will give you are highly addictive, I can speak to addiction in another post. For now I will start my nightly routine up again. It has been a couple years since I have had insomnia. No doubt it is from all the recent stress and in the past identifying the key stressor and finding ways to cope with it has helped. 

Gotta run, if you have questions, please let me know.